‘Ya No Te Conozco’ | [Video] Demo by Phantasiis

‘Ya No Te Conozco’ | [Video] Demo by Phantasiis

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rngcXDTnYLs Hello, Here's a video of a song I wrote in July. It's in Spanish. I hope that you like it. I was having lots of nostalgia when I was writing the lyrics, and the music felt right. There's times where I write the music first, and the lyrics follow suit. Other times it's the [...]

Back at the Craft | Update

Back at the Craft | Update

Here’s a song that I’ve made recently. It’s an instrumental where I try to emulate the Lo-Fi genre. I hope you like it! "Where I've Been" - Ernesto Delirium I stopped making music for several weeks due to my mental state and negative mindset. I started exercising during that time and did meditation consistently. I [...]

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

It’s been 12 years since I started this path. Mental illness wasn’t the problem. The struggle was how to regain my confidence and self-esteem after the first onset of symptoms.  In retrospect, I felt like an observer. I was aware of my surroundings and the people around me. The constant struggle to try to belong [...]

It’s Not Your Time

It’s Not Your Time

It’s a way that sadness manifests itself. A depressive period where you’re trying to make yourself feel anything else other than you. Coping skills are what define you during this moment. Please know that it won’t last forever. What you do during this period might do, however. This is the time where you have a [...]

You Know its Time for a Pause

You Know its Time for a Pause

You’ve been there before. The process repeats itself. You are well aware of what happens, why, and how it’s going to end. Your body, dreams, and gut tells you to slow down. You’re living too fast with no time to appreciate what’s in front of you. But you resist the idea of slowing down, knowing [...]

Shared Dreams

Shared Dreams

Where you been? I was longing for your return Waiting for my turn To share with you my dream A dream about a place Full of music and light Where I had to inevitably embrace The beauty in your eyes When you look at me And ask me why I answer nothing I have nowhere [...]

Checking-In

Checking-In

Next week is finals week. I’ll earn a bachelor’s degree in applied psychology. Last Thursday was my last lecture as an undergrad. I felt nostalgia.  A chapter ends and another begins. Many years and sacrifices happened to get to this point. Below are some questions that I’m exploring tonight. I would love to read your [...]

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

This song was written as a reminder to myself. To be thankful for people that I welcome to my life. To be aware of who I let to hear my story. It turned out to be a lesson for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=822rU5FnNBg Thank you for listening. Please let me know your thoughts in the comments or [...]

Falling Gently

Falling Gently

This post is about self-awareness. I was on a funk for some time. Now, things are different because I think about them differently. Its perspective. As I’ve discussed on my last post update, I took a break from digital distractions. I realized in a few days how much time I had to do things that [...]

Rx to Self: Part Three

Rx to Self: Part Three

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Misinformation and poor communication  I tend to do things on my own for most of the time. The idea of self-sufficiency is something that I look up to. When my [...]

Rx to Self: Part Two

Rx to Self: Part Two

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Not having health insurance I didn’t really had an idea how to find, and be able to qualify for health insurance for my grandpa in Mexico. My intention at this [...]