Shared Dreams

Shared Dreams

Where you been? I was longing for your return Waiting for my turn To share with you my dream A dream about a place Full of music and light Where I had to inevitably embrace The beauty in your eyes When you look at me And ask me why I answer nothing I have nowhere [...]

Writing About What Hurts

Writing About What Hurts

“Write hard and clear about what hurts.” ― Ernest Hemingway  This quote has been inside my mind lately. Most of my writing is inspired by what’s hurting and confusing me. The struggles of trying to give meaning to what I can’t explain to someone in person. Explaining how I feel can be problematic. Sometimes, I [...]

The Tree that Cried

The night brought the moonlight Caressing the tree, with patience Erasing the darkness around it Giving it life among the dead A garden full of murdered dreams. Dreams that never came true Dreams that waited an eternity But the eternal has an end here Infinity can stop on this garden The tree couldn’t understand why [...]

During the Night

During the night I feel them Coming thirsty Eating my will and confidence A thousand hands Reaching to my mind Touching my fears Tempting with my life A voice speaking “Good night” Until I fall sleep Nightmares rising Waking alone Full of marks and scars Inside my thoughts I'm becoming An outsider of my own [...]

Guidance

"Do you believe that I will do the right thing? I don’t have to ask you though, but I need your guidance. Decisions are hard for me most of the time. Everyone says that is fine, and time is being wasted waiting for guidance. I don’t know why my friend, but you seem to be [...]

Mountain

You and I created a mountain Made of rocks of love and distance Bushes of hugs and feelings We build a hard resistance We went high, very high Reaching the sky Creating a new life Turning darkness into light Suddenly, after a long time Our apex, our top became cold Full of ice Our mountain [...]

I Remember

“I remember the blood on the walls. The painting on the wall, it was her, the maiden with the black dress. It was her gaze, her black eyes that looked at me. The red was everywhere. I can’t forget it. I was laying on the floor, anxious and paranoid. And then, I saw hell on [...]

Until the Last

My time is neutral It stopped in one scene That’s why I’m immortal  No more reason to bleed One photograph tells my past That I once lived with a smile With a dream, without evil Without negative desires Even though my body is aging Its my mind that doesn’t grow I make the pain painless [...]

Suicide Awareness Month: A Personal Note

Suicide Awareness Month: A Personal Note

Suicide. This is, by far, as open as I can be about it online. My first attempt happened on 2011. I rarely talk about my experience with others, and not even close relatives know this about me. The reason for the latter is because of the stigma the word suicide carries. For most of my [...]

Morita Therapy

Morita Therapy

Recently, while having a moment of anxiety, I discovered that I was doing a version of Morita therapy as a way of dealing with my symptoms. This type of therapy comes from Japanese psychology. Today, I am sharing with you what I am learning about it, and how it is helping me. The idea behind [...]

Writer’s Block Afterthoughts

Writer’s Block Afterthoughts

A hurricane of urgent thoughts. All of them seem important. All of them seem useless, too. An unbearable necessity to solve them. A never-ending loop of negativity. The feedback loop stops the moment I write it down. All of the sudden, the hurricane disappears.     These past two weeks have been restful and unusually [...]

Being Productive While On Vacation

Being Productive While On Vacation

I took some time off in order to focus on preparing to apply for graduate school in the upcoming months. The first half of the semester will be intense. I must get the fundamentals done before school starts. Between the days and nights, I have been working on music, and learning a bit more of [...]