New EP Out Now

Hello,

I’ve released a new spoken-word, 11 tracks EP in Spanish. It’s titled “Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste” (Differential: He had a sad day). 

Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste

This EP is composed of poems that I wrote, based on love and heartbreak with the point of view of someone who has a mental health condition. 

It deals with topics of anxiety, lack of emotions, the silences that couples experience at times when there’s much to say.

It explains that sensation when someone you care about tries to diagnose you unintentionally, out of curiosity. 

The music itself is minimalistic. The main focus was on the vocals, which were difficult to record but forced me to be creative with the tools I had. 

Overall, I’m satisfied with this experiment. I’m visualizing more of this, but more guitar driven. 

This EP is also available on Apple Music, YouTube, Amazon, and on most streaming services. 

Muchas Gracias,

-Ernesto

Sleepwalker (Going Towards You) – Lyrics

Sleepwalker (Going Towards You) – Lyrics

Sleepwalker

It was too late

Walking asleep

I was confused

Nothing happened

 

Since I was alone

just half awake

and unconscious

 

Sleepwalker

 

Going towards you

In this fictitious dream

to hold  and embrace your being

 

Sleepwalker

Living in a perfect world

to forget everything after

 

Sleepwalker

Waking up and seeing the disaster

Sleepwalker

Sleepwalker

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal

and I get this thrill

And at the end I don’t remember

 

Anything

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal,

and I get this thrill

and at the end I don’t remember

 

Anything, whatsoever

 

Going towards you

In this fictitious dream

to hold and embrace your being

 

Sleepwalker

Living in a perfect world

to forget everything after

 

Sleepwalker

Waking up and seeing the disaster

Sleepwalker

Sleepwalker

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal

and I get this thrill

And at the end I don’t remember

Anything, whatsoever

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal

and I get this thrill

And at the end I don’t remember

 

Anything, whatsoever


Mirrors (The Devil) – Lyrics

Mirrors (The Devil) – Lyrics

Mirrors

I just crossed the line
With graceful movements
I saw the evil in my eyes
In the mirror monuments

Fear screamed from the mirror
A fear I couldn’t believe
A fear so mysterious
A fear with no reason to be

Walking forward, with no direction
I immerse myself into dimensions
Looking for answers, asking the questions
Nobody is there

I have nobodies’ attention

The corner of the room
With white walls that turn black
That is the place where the fears start to bloom
Once they are in, there is no turning back

Blinded with blasts of paranoia
Penetrating my eyes
It gives me feels of euphoria
A feeling that I have to hide

Forcing the throat
To scream away the fears
Until the bleeding comes
Until the ears cannot resist

Terrorizing howls enter through my mind
Then they turn into images of horror
And through my eyes pass by
Black, gray, and red are the colors

That kill the soul inside

Everything started that morning
While staring at the mirror
I found another face

And it wasn’t me
It was the devil.


And There We Were – Lyrics

And There We Were – Lyrics

And There We Were

And there we were

Dancing among sounds and lights

Lost in nowhere

We found our somewhere

 

Our place in time, our place in space

Our corners

Our walls

Our spells

 

And there we were

Flowing in the moment

Holding what wasn’t broken

Kissing away the pain

 

And there we were

Living the complexity

Of the simplicity

Of what we used to care

 

You had embraced me

I had embraced you

You had me when I saw you

I knew it, I wanted you

 

You had embraced me

I had embraced you

You had me when I saw you

I knew it, I wanted you

 

And there we were.


Forever After (Anxiety) – Lyrics

Forever After (Anxiety) – Lyrics

Forever After (Anxiety)

Feelings

That I don’t want

That I don’t need

Why can’t I just make them disappear?

 

It makes me sad

I can’t control it

It’s in my mind

I can’t avoid it

 

This obsession

that I have

with my thoughts

I cannot stop

 

Why I can’t just shut my mind?

Why I can’t just close my eyes?

 

But I can’t

I am too anxious

Overwhelmed

So pretentious

 

It appears

that this will be

forever after

inside of me

 

I am worried

It’s hard to breathe

I am nervous

It’s hard to think

 

Anxiety follows me

You are not in here

I don’t want this

I don’t need this

 

This obsession

that I have

with my thoughts

I cannot stop

 

Why I can’t just shut my mind?

Why I can’t just close my eyes?

But I can’t

I am too anxious

Overwhelmed

So pretentious

 

It appears

that this will be

forever after

inside of me

 

Forever after

Inside of me

I just want this

To disappear


Talk To Me (Denial) – Lyrics

Talk To Me (Denial) – Lyrics

Talk To Me (Denial)

It’s been enough time

the moment has come

so you can become undone

denial, talk to me

 

There’s no reason to be

you did your affliction in me

distracted me, drained me

abused me and confused me

 

You gave me false hopes

a thousand scenarios

non of them where doable

none of them where real

 

A lack of consciousness

a lack of awareness

Denial, talk to me

let’s set our differences

 

Say what you need to say

your end is here tonight

you must talk

You must die

 

I’ve had enough

the moment is now

You’ll be undone

and witness what I’ve become

 

Come on denial, talk to me

we need to talk.


Angry Hurricane – Lyrics

Angry Hurricane – Lyrics

I was feeling frustrated
I was not alone
And I just needed space

But I did not told you so
I chose to keep silence

And there I was, faking that I was fine
A hurricane of anger
But still, I made you a nice breakfast
Two eggs, sunny side up, fresh spinach and ham, with some coffee as well

I did not mention that I was furious
That I had a hurricane that was destroying me from the inside out
It was a hot summer morning
And I was feeling nothing close to warm inside

I became a frostbitten silent man
A speechless entity that was sharing breakfast next to you

I resembled more of a statue than a friend
I just did not wanted to be in me own skin
Mi silences started to speak by themselves
My body was screaming in desperation

I still do not know why I did not explode at that moment
I really wanted to release all of this

It seemed like a good idea to do it so by washing the dishes
And there I was, doing some occupational therapy

Until you noticed that the therapy that I needed was to leave me alone with my thoughts

You hugged me, and I could not hug you back the way I normally do
You left me alone, and I felt relief

I thought I handled it pretty damn good
I did not told you anything negative, nor insulting

I kept my thoughts and anger, and this hell of a hurricane inside of me as usual. As I always do.

This is just some wishful thinking
I wanted to believe that you didn’t notice
But I know you did

I know that you know my anger, and my silences
I forgot that tomorrow was your birthday

And here am I, creating havoc and hurricanes because I do not know any better

Five Lessons Learned After a Year of Music Releases

Five Lessons Learned After a Year of Music Releases

Time flies.

It’s been a year since I started to release songs through Spotify, Apple MusicDeezer, YouTube, Amazon, and iHeart Radio among many other outlets and stores.

I released 21 songs since October 2017.

A spoken-word record will be released in the near future.

I decided to do things differently with the latter. I decided to do the project in Spanish, my first language. I don’t know where it’s going to lead me, but I’m happy with the product. It’s a record that will have some of my favorite poems, in spoken-word format with a dark ambience. It’s a recollection of past experiences and memories that are here to stay, for better or worse. Please see below the following five lessons of the year.

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New Single: Farewell to All I Used to Care

New Single: Farewell to All I Used to Care

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Hello,

I’ve been working on improving my mixing skills. I’ve applied what I’ve learned so far on this new single, titled “Farewell to All I Used to Care”.

This song was recorded during the summer. It took time to figure out how I wanted it to sound. All I know is that it gave me this feeling of saying good-bye. This song has a lot of meaning for me because I have actually parted ways with someone especial for me. It is a bittersweet feeling knowing that things won’t be as they used to. It makes me happy, however, that I’ll be around somehow.

I feel a slight improvement on my mixing techniques. I hope that this song makes you feel something, or remember that especial someone in your life. Someone that you know won’t be getting back.

Let me know what you think.

Please enjoy.