It’s Not Your Time

It’s Not Your Time

It’s a way that sadness manifests itself. A depressive period where you’re trying to make yourself feel anything else other than you. Coping skills are what define you during this moment. Please know that it won’t last forever. What you do during this period might do, however. This is the time where you have a [...]

New EP Out Now

Hello, I've released a new spoken-word, 11 tracks EP in Spanish. It's titled "Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste" (Differential: He had a sad day).  https://open.spotify.com/album/5b9s5UiPUezm5ZZuyIQ5oa?si=z9yf1q9RTNCtjMfUjKCVsA Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste This EP is composed of poems that I wrote, based on love and heartbreak with the point of view of someone who has a mental [...]

The Tree that Cried

The night brought the moonlight Caressing the tree, with patience Erasing the darkness around it Giving it life among the dead A garden full of murdered dreams. Dreams that never came true Dreams that waited an eternity But the eternal has an end here Infinity can stop on this garden The tree couldn’t understand why [...]

During the Night

During the night I feel them Coming thirsty Eating my will and confidence A thousand hands Reaching to my mind Touching my fears Tempting with my life A voice speaking “Good night” Until I fall sleep Nightmares rising Waking alone Full of marks and scars Inside my thoughts I'm becoming An outsider of my own [...]

I Remember

“I remember the blood on the walls. The painting on the wall, it was her, the maiden with the black dress. It was her gaze, her black eyes that looked at me. The red was everywhere. I can’t forget it. I was laying on the floor, anxious and paranoid. And then, I saw hell on [...]

Eleven Years Ago: In Retrospect

Eleven Years Ago: In Retrospect

This past Friday, October 12, was my anniversary. When darkness happened. When the first set of symptoms triggered. When darkness arrived. I was 16 years old. I still wonder why. The only worry I had is to get good grades. Making friends wasn’t necessarily a priority. I was a lonely guy. I didn’t mind. I preferred [...]

Outlier

Outlier

“You’re an outlier,” she told me. “You’ve achieved so much compared to others,” she added. I couldn’t hold it. My eyes started tearing. My voice was cracking. I couldn’t reply to her. I’ve heard that before. She might be right, but I felt like a failure. For the rest of the day, I was too [...]

Suicide Awareness Month: A Personal Note

Suicide Awareness Month: A Personal Note

Suicide. This is, by far, as open as I can be about it online. My first attempt happened on 2011. I rarely talk about my experience with others, and not even close relatives know this about me. The reason for the latter is because of the stigma the word suicide carries. For most of my [...]

Forgetting Who I Once Was

It has been more than a decade since it happened. It was a late October night. I could not fall a sleep, and the red screen of my alarm clock was staring at me. As if the clock was getting ready to do something the moment I closed my eyes. Then, within the darkness of [...]

On Distraction and Finding Focus After an Organized Mess

  Music has been my emotional release lately. I had tried meditation several times and it does help to reach mental clarity. There is something unique when I am making music, however. I probably have not much experience yet with meditation to fully reach its benefits. I believe it makes me think better when I [...]

New EP Out Now

spotify:album:6OWuhN4c8uQI5Pf5jK794l Hello All, My new EP Uncomfortable Reflections and Other Stories is out now on all streaming platforms. It was an intimate experience writing and recording this record. It has a lot of meaning for me since I have been in an emotional rollercoaster lately. I hope, that some of the lyrics resonate with others. Thank [...]