Phantasiis
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Tag: Sadness
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How To Be An Unhappy Creative
A blogpost about what I do to not be creating art, and how to stay unhappy.
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It’s Not Your Time
It’s a way that sadness manifests itself. A depressive period where you’re trying to make yourself feel anything else other than you. Coping skills are what define you during this moment. Please know that it won’t last forever. What you do during this period might do, however.
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New EP Out Now
Hello, I’ve released a new spoken-word, 11 tracks EP in Spanish. It’s titled “Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste” (Differential: He had a sad day). This EP is composed of poems that I wrote, based on love and heartbreak with the point of view of someone who has a mental health condition. It deals with topics…
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During the Night
During the night I feel them Coming thirsty Eating my will and confidence A thousand hands Reaching to my mind Touching my fears Tempting with my life A voice speaking “Good night” Until I fall sleep Nightmares rising Waking alone Full of marks and scars Inside my thoughts I’m becoming An outsider of my own…
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I Remember
“I remember the blood on the walls. The painting on the wall, it was her, the maiden with the black dress. It was her gaze, her black eyes that looked at me. The red was everywhere. I can’t forget it. I was laying on the floor, anxious and paranoid. And then, I saw hell on…
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Good Night
If only you knew How much I need you How much I miss you The doubt kills me You don’t know how much I remember when I kissed you And stared at your lips I felt them And touched your hands I wish it lasted forever But I know it wasn’t true Everything goes slow…
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Eleven Years Ago: In Retrospect
This past Friday, October 12, was my anniversary. When darkness happened. When the first set of symptoms triggered. When darkness arrived. I was 16 years old. I still wonder why. The only worry I had is to get good grades. Making friends wasn’t necessarily a priority. I was a lonely guy. I didn’t mind. I preferred…
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Suicide Awareness Month: A Personal Note
Suicide. This is, by far, as open as I can be about it online. My first attempt happened on 2011.
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Forgetting Who I Once Was
It has been more than a decade since it happened. It was a late October night. I could not fall a sleep, and the red screen of my alarm clock was staring at me. As if the clock was getting ready to do something the moment I closed my eyes. Then, within the darkness of…
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On Distraction and Finding Focus After an Organized Mess
Music has been my emotional release lately. I had tried meditation several times and it does help to reach mental clarity. There is something unique when I am making music, however. I probably have not much experience yet with meditation to fully reach its benefits. I believe it makes me think better when I…
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