Today I worked on an instrumental song that I’ve produced from scratch live on Twitch and Facebook. While the stream itself wasn’t optimized-it looked low-res and blurry- I had an amazing experience doing it. I took me about two hours and a half to have the finished product that you’ll see below.
“Mi Otro Yo” or my other self in English is a song that to me, teleports the listener to a place where you meet your other self, either good or bad and have a conversation with them. It has a dark, somber atmosphere but also a feeling of hope, nonetheless.
I hope that this song makes you feel something special.
I’ve been creating music regularly for the last couple of months. I’ve been experiencing a period of stability in life that I haven’t experienced before. I don’t have the sensation that my energy is being drained. Sleeping better and feeling happy. Loved and admired from who I am, not for what I’m expected to be according to anyone’s standards.
It was a scary feeling to feel this type of connection. So much positivity and beautiful energy from someone. Made me think that I didn’t deserve to be treated like that.
I’m glad I was wrong.
Needed to experience what I thought I really needed in life. While life itself and the universe gave me the opportunity to meet someone so special, so true and so beautiful.
Even if the song translates to “Loneliness” it’s not meant to reflect my current state of mind.
This song was made to say goodbye to those things. To those connections that aren’t part of me anymore. To anything and everything that made me feel alone. Even when I was next to someone.
I’m starting by releasing some singles that I’ve been working on. The first one is called “Shadow on the Wall”, which is an instrumental song. It was a fun project to do. It is scheduled to be released on January 8th on most streaming platforms.
If you’d like to pre-save it on your Spotify, click here. You’ll have the option to add your email if you’d like to subscribe to my email list. I hope this song makes you imagine something or sends you to a good place.
I’ve been exploring my lyrics in Spanish, my first language. The reason for that is because I can rhyme and improvise better with it. My written and spoken English is more academic rather than metaphorical or artistic. I felt limited.
This process took several months of trial and error. I’m mostly self-thought on my music and production skills. At a certain point I felt certain guilt of investing so much time, money, and hours on this craft and not releasing anything to the world. While it is not a requirement, I felt compelled to share my music and change of sound since my old project Ernesto Delirium.
I remember that I wrote that Phantasiis was going to be a new project where I’ll focus on hip-hop, rap, and instrumentals. I’ve kept my word. However, this website wasn’t reflecting that.
Which brings me to this post.
Here’s my first attempt at producing a rap song made by yours truly. I’ve invested in a microphone and decided to try it, after much hesitation on my ability to create something different than a rough recording. I’ve used all the tools that I had available and mixed this song to the best of my ability.
It turned out decent.
To me this is huge as a self-thought music producer. It is a new milestone on my skillset. I’m working on some releases and writing lyrics as well. I’ll update you soon about it.
Hola, espero estes muy bien. Llevo mucho tiempo sin publicar aqui. Sin embargo, eh estado haciendo musica y letras para esas canciones. En ese video encontraras una de ellas. Y a mi de paso. Que estes bien, un abrazo. -Ernesto, “phantasiis”
Here’s a new beat that I made recently. I hope that you like it. I spent several days without making any music. I’ve been, however, playing my guitar and doing freestyles in Spanish to get a creative flow going.
I’m finally sleeping better and feel like a human being again. I feel that my body is still recovering from extended sleep deprivation. I’m feeling great nonetheless.
I feel that I’m making progress with my music. Perhaps not in quality or uniqueness if you will, but I do feel a certain change on how I make music. I feel that I’m finally have some sort of system going on. A process where I can hear the song in my head and translate it to my DAW.
I’m slowly but surely switching from using Mac to PC. Mostly because of school and software compatibility. I’ve been okay with the transition. I’m going to miss Logic Pro for sure, it is great for mixing. I like its workflow.
For now, I’ve been producing on FL Studio 20. I’m still working on getting to know the program well and I know just enough to create songs and do mixes. It’s a great software.
For this song, I’ve used XLN Audio RC-20 plug in. It’s my first time using it and I like how it sounds so far. Perhaps it will be a constant tool on future songs.
It’s been a while since I’ve made a blog post. I’ve been working in the background. Making songs on a regular basis and learning new software.
Here’s some updates I’d like to share with you since my absence:
I’ve noticed that I’m more creative when I wake up earlier than later in the day. The days where I wake up early are the days where I grab some coffee and start working on music.
I moved to my own place -finally- and it has been great having my own space to dwell on my creativity and just be alone.
I released a 3 song EP under my side project Phantasiis, which is titled, ‘Take It Easy’. You can find it here .
I’ve been doing freestyle rap in Spanish and recording myself doing it. It’s been really fun and sometimes I do get in to a flow state.
I’ve bought a microphone that is surprisingly small, but it works for practice purposes.
I’ve got into console gaming, I’ve been playing Apex Legends on Xbox for a few weeks and I’ve been loving it.
Finally bought a TV -never owned one- soon to realize that I don’t really use it to watch anything. It is more to listen to music and occasional YouTube videos.
I realized that I haven’t learned anything about music as of lately, rather I’ve been applying what I know and find new ways to work with that.
I could not move forward to my Masters Program in Data Science due to time constrains.
Instead, I got accepted into a Certificate program for Business Intelligence Analysis by UC San Diego. It has been a great experience and excellent community.
I noticed I’ve reached a point in life where I don’t need much to live comfortably and make music. All I really need is a computer, mouse, and good headphones.
I’ve been having bad insomnia but it has been getting better.
I got into audio books and I really enjoy listening to something interesting while doing something rather mundane. It turns that task into an experience.
I stopped meditating. I don’t have a clear reason why as of now. I feel I’ve reach a point where I meditate through music. I noticed when I was in my meditation period for several months, I didn’t create many songs. Something to think about. Will write about it later.
Lastly, I’ve been thinking a lot about this website. I believe this blog and writing in general is a great outlet for me to express my thoughts and clarify my mind. Hopefully some of this content brought value to you at some point. However, I feel that Ernesto Delirium is not a name I want to keep using for the blog. The main reason is that I don’t plan to release more songs under that project anymore. It was a great experience, but I’d like to focus all of my energy to Phantasiis and keeping it consistent.
Therefore, I’ll change the website address to reflect that change. I don’t know how long the process is going to take, but I’ll make the necessary changes. Also, changing the website design would be a plus, too.
More music to come, especially instrumental hip-hop. I’d like to get back into writing articles about psychology and music as well, time will tell.
I hope you are doing well with all of the chaos going in the world.