New EP Out Now

Hello,

I’ve released a new spoken-word, 11 tracks EP in Spanish. It’s titled “Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste” (Differential: He had a sad day). 

Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste

This EP is composed of poems that I wrote, based on love and heartbreak with the point of view of someone who has a mental health condition. 

It deals with topics of anxiety, lack of emotions, the silences that couples experience at times when there’s much to say.

It explains that sensation when someone you care about tries to diagnose you unintentionally, out of curiosity. 

The music itself is minimalistic. The main focus was on the vocals, which were difficult to record but forced me to be creative with the tools I had. 

Overall, I’m satisfied with this experiment. I’m visualizing more of this, but more guitar driven. 

This EP is also available on Apple Music, YouTube, Amazon, and on most streaming services. 

Muchas Gracias,

-Ernesto

An Idea

An Idea

An idea of you

Abstract

Sometimes, incomplete

I search for you, but I the end

I press “delete”

You’re a complicated riddle

Full of metaphors

And analogies

I wish for you and I

To become an anthology

I question myself too much

I ask for your whereabouts

I’m always filled with my doubts

But you’re what I need so much

When I can finally see you

All my questions

And prayers are answered

Fulfilled and complete

Now I can press “enter”

Instead of “delete”

Because when I’m next to you

I can be anything

I want to be your dream

Erasing the darkness

Would you share this idea with me?


 

Thank you for reading,

Ernesto

Please Dance With Me

Please Dance With Me

Music is no the same without you

It truly isn’t

It feels meaningless

It feels empty

Please, listen to these songs

 

The ones I write about you

Where I tell you how much I miss you

With metaphors and symbols

Music is not enough when you aren’t here

 

When we share songs together

It’s as if I just discovered them again

The songs have meaning

And a purpose

 

I like to listen to your music

And I love when you listen to my songs

I love to hear your notes

Like melodies that set me free

 

Now, I beg you

If you could please dance with me.

 

And There We Were – Lyrics

And There We Were – Lyrics

And There We Were

And there we were

Dancing among sounds and lights

Lost in nowhere

We found our somewhere

 

Our place in time, our place in space

Our corners

Our walls

Our spells

 

And there we were

Flowing in the moment

Holding what wasn’t broken

Kissing away the pain

 

And there we were

Living the complexity

Of the simplicity

Of what we used to care

 

You had embraced me

I had embraced you

You had me when I saw you

I knew it, I wanted you

 

You had embraced me

I had embraced you

You had me when I saw you

I knew it, I wanted you

 

And there we were.


Angry Hurricane – Lyrics

Angry Hurricane – Lyrics

I was feeling frustrated
I was not alone
And I just needed space

But I did not told you so
I chose to keep silence

And there I was, faking that I was fine
A hurricane of anger
But still, I made you a nice breakfast
Two eggs, sunny side up, fresh spinach and ham, with some coffee as well

I did not mention that I was furious
That I had a hurricane that was destroying me from the inside out
It was a hot summer morning
And I was feeling nothing close to warm inside

I became a frostbitten silent man
A speechless entity that was sharing breakfast next to you

I resembled more of a statue than a friend
I just did not wanted to be in me own skin
Mi silences started to speak by themselves
My body was screaming in desperation

I still do not know why I did not explode at that moment
I really wanted to release all of this

It seemed like a good idea to do it so by washing the dishes
And there I was, doing some occupational therapy

Until you noticed that the therapy that I needed was to leave me alone with my thoughts

You hugged me, and I could not hug you back the way I normally do
You left me alone, and I felt relief

I thought I handled it pretty damn good
I did not told you anything negative, nor insulting

I kept my thoughts and anger, and this hell of a hurricane inside of me as usual. As I always do.

This is just some wishful thinking
I wanted to believe that you didn’t notice
But I know you did

I know that you know my anger, and my silences
I forgot that tomorrow was your birthday

And here am I, creating havoc and hurricanes because I do not know any better

The Tree that Cried

The night brought the moonlight
Caressing the tree, with patience
Erasing the darkness around it
Giving it life among the dead

A garden full of murdered dreams.

Dreams that never came true
Dreams that waited an eternity
But the eternal has an end here
Infinity can stop on this garden

The tree couldn’t understand why
Why it was alone, surrounded by death
Entrenched in nothing bud sadness
Even its roots were flooded with anhedonia

A garden full of empty emotions.

Emotions that once were vibrant
Like the tree once was
A memory that is fading, slowly
All that is left is silence

The horrifying desperation of being alone.

The tree had nothing but the moon
That gave its light to it
Without questioning, without reasons
The tree didn’t wanted to know either

When everything around you is dead
Without dreams and hopes
Full of anhedonic creatures
Only your silence gives you company

All that’s left are the fading memories
Of what you used to be
The tree couldn’t help itself
It started to cry

The fear of nothingness arrived
The garden grew and expanded
The moon kept giving its light
Comforting the tree

But the tree was still alone.

Guidance

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“Do you believe that I will do the right thing? I don’t have to ask you though, but I need your guidance. Decisions are hard for me most of the time. Everyone says that is fine, and time is being wasted waiting for guidance. I don’t know why my friend, but you seem to be the compass of my life. I’m codependent. You are my addiction. 

You are far from me. My days are not fulfilled without you. Patience is all I have and our good memories. Is just that I miss you. I want to hear your voice. I want to see you smile. Hug you until it hurts. I want to talk to you. Sometimes it seems like you disappeared.

But it was me who left. “

Mountain

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You and I created a mountain

Made of rocks of love and distance

Bushes of hugs and feelings

We build a hard resistance

We went high, very high

Reaching the sky

Creating a new life

Turning darkness into light

Suddenly, after a long time

Our apex, our top became cold

Full of ice

Our mountain was cold

And there was no heaven

Just a sad blue sky

The sun and its light

Were not enough

To warm us

Our freezing relationship

The moon was our witness

Together, covered by sea

A sea of diamond stars

Our love was decaying

Our words leaved us with cold scars

The tears of a dark cloud

Were a rampage to us, our mountain

The drops turned to a river

Dividing and destroying everything

We were getting destroyed

And our bushes drowned

Nature was right, we needed to stay apart

As a distant road that lead us to each other

But we defied nature. 

The Master I Never Met

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I’m submissive, but not a victim.

You are dominant, but still not a master.

Sometimes, the joy of my heart turns me into a dominant monster.

Other times, the sorrow of my unstable existence diminish the mirror.

The reflection I have with other souls, other ideas.

That means that I’m weak and like a sponge to despair.

But when I’m with you, all that schlock disappears.

I dedicate my thoughts to you when I need to be strong.

When my heart stops because the murky day is eating me, I think of you.

After that thought, I realize that I am a victim, but just your victim.

You are my master.

The dominant monster.

You are my sorrow.

My broken mirror.

My murky schlock.

The fragile reflection of a beautiful being that I’ve never met.

Or have I?

 

 

Good Night

moon and stars
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If only you knew
How much I need you
How much I miss you
The doubt kills me

You don’t know how much
I remember when I kissed you
And stared at your lips

I felt them

And touched your hands
I wish it lasted forever
But I know it wasn’t true

Everything goes slow without you
And when I’m with you
Everything goes fast
When I wake up I don’t believe it

It was just a dream
You and I are a dream
Something that our minds created
And it only lives inside of them

But like every good dream
We wake up
We think about it
And at the end, we forget it

Good night.