Phantasiis – ‘Summer Beats’ | Instrumental Hip-Hop Playlist

Phantasiis – ‘Summer Beats’ | Instrumental Hip-Hop Playlist

Here’s a playlist of several singles that I released today on my SoundCloud. For some reason which I yet need to explore, I didn’t want to release it. Perhaps it was a sensation of impostor syndrome disguised as procrastination. I had several songs finished and ready to go, and I still did not do the last step -the easiest one, release them- for several weeks.

I believe I got trapped in a ‘it still needs to improve’ mindset. From now on, I’m going to release more frequently and with less hesitation about quality. I want to release well mixed music, of course. However, what might sound bad for me, my be good for others. It’s all about perspective. I need to be okay with that.

I’m still having recurring insomnia and is getting into a point of frustration. I hope, that with better sleep hygiene and cutting on caffeine I can rest better. I’m revisiting some of books which discuss sleep and how to optimize it. If I get results from what I learn, I’ll share here.

Lastly, I have a question for you:

How often does it happen to you when you have a finished product of any kind, and self-doubt kicks in and you delay its release? I’m not completely sure is self-doubt most of the time. I think there’s something deeper than that. Who knows? Hence, the question. Please let me know in the comments section what is your answer. Also, if you liked any of the songs from this playlist below.

Thank you for listening.

Guitar Loop [Video]

Guitar Loop [Video]

Life has been improving with more challenges and constrictions. There is beauty on limitations. Having less time for music may be a good thing.

I’m on my last semester for my bachelors degree. It has been a rough one to say the least, and it has made me appreciate my leisure time. Now, when I have a window of free time, it goes towards the craft.

Getting back at it after a break

This is my first YouTube video where I’m doing an improvisation over a beat I made on Maschine. I’m using a Boss RC-1 Loop Station pedal, and a Blackstar ID: Core Amplifier. It was recorded on the fly with an iPhone microphone.

I’ve been working on some demos for a project under a different name. I’m hoping to release the new project EP by this summer. We’ll see.

As always, let me know your thoughts, questions or suggestions using the contact form.

Mondai nai,

-Ernesto

New EP Out Now

Hello,

I’ve released a new spoken-word, 11 tracks EP in Spanish. It’s titled “Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste” (Differential: He had a sad day). 

Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste

This EP is composed of poems that I wrote, based on love and heartbreak with the point of view of someone who has a mental health condition. 

It deals with topics of anxiety, lack of emotions, the silences that couples experience at times when there’s much to say.

It explains that sensation when someone you care about tries to diagnose you unintentionally, out of curiosity. 

The music itself is minimalistic. The main focus was on the vocals, which were difficult to record but forced me to be creative with the tools I had. 

Overall, I’m satisfied with this experiment. I’m visualizing more of this, but more guitar driven. 

This EP is also available on Apple Music, YouTube, Amazon, and on most streaming services. 

Muchas Gracias,

-Ernesto

Sleepwalker (Going Towards You) – Lyrics

Sleepwalker (Going Towards You) – Lyrics

Sleepwalker

It was too late

Walking asleep

I was confused

Nothing happened

 

Since I was alone

just half awake

and unconscious

 

Sleepwalker

 

Going towards you

In this fictitious dream

to hold  and embrace your being

 

Sleepwalker

Living in a perfect world

to forget everything after

 

Sleepwalker

Waking up and seeing the disaster

Sleepwalker

Sleepwalker

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal

and I get this thrill

And at the end I don’t remember

 

Anything

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal,

and I get this thrill

and at the end I don’t remember

 

Anything, whatsoever

 

Going towards you

In this fictitious dream

to hold and embrace your being

 

Sleepwalker

Living in a perfect world

to forget everything after

 

Sleepwalker

Waking up and seeing the disaster

Sleepwalker

Sleepwalker

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal

and I get this thrill

And at the end I don’t remember

Anything, whatsoever

 

Convinced myself that it was real

it seemed normal

and I get this thrill

And at the end I don’t remember

 

Anything, whatsoever


Mirrors (The Devil) – Lyrics

Mirrors (The Devil) – Lyrics

Mirrors

I just crossed the line
With graceful movements
I saw the evil in my eyes
In the mirror monuments

Fear screamed from the mirror
A fear I couldn’t believe
A fear so mysterious
A fear with no reason to be

Walking forward, with no direction
I immerse myself into dimensions
Looking for answers, asking the questions
Nobody is there

I have nobodies’ attention

The corner of the room
With white walls that turn black
That is the place where the fears start to bloom
Once they are in, there is no turning back

Blinded with blasts of paranoia
Penetrating my eyes
It gives me feels of euphoria
A feeling that I have to hide

Forcing the throat
To scream away the fears
Until the bleeding comes
Until the ears cannot resist

Terrorizing howls enter through my mind
Then they turn into images of horror
And through my eyes pass by
Black, gray, and red are the colors

That kill the soul inside

Everything started that morning
While staring at the mirror
I found another face

And it wasn’t me
It was the devil.


And There We Were – Lyrics

And There We Were – Lyrics

And There We Were

And there we were

Dancing among sounds and lights

Lost in nowhere

We found our somewhere

 

Our place in time, our place in space

Our corners

Our walls

Our spells

 

And there we were

Flowing in the moment

Holding what wasn’t broken

Kissing away the pain

 

And there we were

Living the complexity

Of the simplicity

Of what we used to care

 

You had embraced me

I had embraced you

You had me when I saw you

I knew it, I wanted you

 

You had embraced me

I had embraced you

You had me when I saw you

I knew it, I wanted you

 

And there we were.


Forever After (Anxiety) – Lyrics

Forever After (Anxiety) – Lyrics

Forever After (Anxiety)

Feelings

That I don’t want

That I don’t need

Why can’t I just make them disappear?

 

It makes me sad

I can’t control it

It’s in my mind

I can’t avoid it

 

This obsession

that I have

with my thoughts

I cannot stop

 

Why I can’t just shut my mind?

Why I can’t just close my eyes?

 

But I can’t

I am too anxious

Overwhelmed

So pretentious

 

It appears

that this will be

forever after

inside of me

 

I am worried

It’s hard to breathe

I am nervous

It’s hard to think

 

Anxiety follows me

You are not in here

I don’t want this

I don’t need this

 

This obsession

that I have

with my thoughts

I cannot stop

 

Why I can’t just shut my mind?

Why I can’t just close my eyes?

But I can’t

I am too anxious

Overwhelmed

So pretentious

 

It appears

that this will be

forever after

inside of me

 

Forever after

Inside of me

I just want this

To disappear


Talk To Me (Denial) – Lyrics

Talk To Me (Denial) – Lyrics

Talk To Me (Denial)

It’s been enough time

the moment has come

so you can become undone

denial, talk to me

 

There’s no reason to be

you did your affliction in me

distracted me, drained me

abused me and confused me

 

You gave me false hopes

a thousand scenarios

non of them where doable

none of them where real

 

A lack of consciousness

a lack of awareness

Denial, talk to me

let’s set our differences

 

Say what you need to say

your end is here tonight

you must talk

You must die

 

I’ve had enough

the moment is now

You’ll be undone

and witness what I’ve become

 

Come on denial, talk to me

we need to talk.