Falling Gently

This post is about self-awareness. I was on a funk for some time. Now, things are different because I think about them differently. Its perspective. As I’ve discussed on my last post update, I took a break from digital distractions. I realized in a few days how much time I had to do things that […]

Angry With A Choice

Choosing how to react when something happens to you is a skill. I’ve been practicing it during the winter break. It’s knowing that you are in control of your reaction, regardless of the emotion being present. This practice comes handy during times when your only option is to be strong.

The Question I Ask When I’m Feeling Anxious

I had an anxiety attack while getting ready for my internship. To be honest, I don’t know what triggered it, it just happened. I was doing well for several days. This episode served me as a reminder and a learning experience, too.

After the Exam

I’ve been on a sea of emotions. I had highs and lows since the last blog post. I’ve smiled, cried, experienced peace and chaos. I was worried, nervous, and overwhelmed. I felt that life was on hold. I focused so much on the graduate school entry exam. The focus was so much that was causing […]

Why I’m Not Good Enough

You have what it takes. At least that’s what you’ve been told. Why is this so hard to believe it then? This lack of self-confidence is in my head today. Feeling that I’m not good enough. It is causing me anxiety. This is known as the impostor syndrome. 

When It’s Time To Record Music

You know it’s time. The ideas are there, and you can hear the melody inside of you. Maybe you feel the rhythm in your hands. Perhaps you already got the chorus down, or the last verse for your unwritten song. The build up of emotions and ideas that will be your fuel when you are […]

Concluding Thoughts After Finishing A Song

I am releasing a new single this Friday, September 21st on Spotify. This song has a lot of meaning for me because I recorded it at the tipping point of desperation. Hence, it seemed appropriate to title it “Completely Desperate.” This song was cathartic and necessary for me to do. I have been wanting to […]

Morita Therapy

Recently, while having a moment of anxiety, I discovered that I was doing a version of Morita therapy as a way of dealing with my symptoms. This type of therapy comes from Japanese psychology. Today, I am sharing with you what I am learning about it, and how it is helping me.

Writer’s Block Afterthoughts

A hurricane of urgent thoughts. All of them seem important. All of them seem useless, too. An unbearable necessity to solve them. A never-ending loop of negativity. The feedback loop stops the moment I write it down. All of the sudden, the hurricane disappears.

Being Productive While On Vacation

I took some time off in order to focus on preparing to apply for graduate school in the upcoming months. The first half of the semester will be intense. I must get the fundamentals done before school starts. Between the days and nights, I have been working on music, and learning a bit more of […]

Pressing The Record Button

The time to explore, experiment, and create music has started again. After focusing on summer school, I finally have some time to record ideas. On that note, hitting the record button was a scary thing to do.

Writing Down The Anxiety

Today, I noticed that I did not focus as much as I planned. I masked my process of busyness by doing something else that was important, but not urgent. I have a deadline to finish. However, I did not focus as much on the latter, and still, I felt productive somehow. Though the work and […]