“Eres Fuerte” (You’re Strong) – Phantasiis | Lo-Fi Type Beat

I was having an emotional experience while creating this song. I almost wanted to cry out of joy of doing what I love and getting lost in the sounds. When I’m in this state of flow, I forget to eat or to take breaks. I forget everything and I let myself get carried by the […]
“Mi Otro Yo” (My Other Self) – Prod. by Phantasiis | Hip-hop Instrumental | Piano Type Beat

Today I worked on an instrumental song that I’ve produced from scratch live on Twitch and Facebook. While the stream itself wasn’t optimized-it looked low-res and blurry- I had an amazing experience doing it. I took me about two hours and a half to have the finished product that you’ll see below. “Mi Otro Yo” […]
Imminent Chaos | Dark Emotional Beat

Buy here: https://bsta.rs/1b7c030 I’d like to share with you my newest beat on Beatstars. This one was an interesting one for me because I didn’t expect to turn this dark. When I started making the beat, I was envisioning a feeling of closure, a feeling of redemption. It turned out differently. Once I started adding […]
Angry Hurricane – Lyrics

I was feeling frustrated I was not alone And I just needed space But I did not told you so I chose to keep silence And there I was, faking that I was fine A hurricane of anger But still, I made you a nice breakfast Two eggs, sunny side up, fresh spinach and ham, […]
The Tree that Cried
The night brought the moonlight Caressing the tree, with patience Erasing the darkness around it Giving it life among the dead A garden full of murdered dreams. Dreams that never came true Dreams that waited an eternity But the eternal has an end here Infinity can stop on this garden The tree couldn’t understand why […]
During the Night
During the night I feel them Coming thirsty Eating my will and confidence A thousand hands Reaching to my mind Touching my fears Tempting with my life A voice speaking “Good night” Until I fall sleep Nightmares rising Waking alone Full of marks and scars Inside my thoughts I’m becoming An outsider of my own […]
I Remember
“I remember the blood on the walls. The painting on the wall, it was her, the maiden with the black dress. It was her gaze, her black eyes that looked at me. The red was everywhere. I can’t forget it. I was laying on the floor, anxious and paranoid. And then, I saw hell on […]
Until the Last
My time is neutral It stopped in one scene That’s why I’m immortal No more reason to bleed One photograph tells my past That I once lived with a smile With a dream, without evil Without negative desires Even though my body is aging Its my mind that doesn’t grow I make the pain painless […]
Eleven Years Ago: In Retrospect

This past Friday, October 12, was my anniversary. When darkness happened. When the first set of symptoms triggered. When darkness arrived. I was 16 years old. I still wonder why. The only worry I had is to get good grades. Making friends wasn’t necessarily a priority. I was a lonely guy. I didn’t mind. I preferred […]
Suicide Awareness Month: A Personal Note

Suicide. This is, by far, as open as I can be about it online. My first attempt happened on 2011.
Dream
There are times where I cannot distinguish a dream from reality. I am not a frequent dreamer, but then I do dream, it is hard to distinguish if I am awake or not. I can talk, move, or react to my dreams and then waking myself up in a sea of confusion. I wake up […]
Forgetting Who I Once Was
It has been more than a decade since it happened. It was a late October night. I could not fall a sleep, and the red screen of my alarm clock was staring at me. As if the clock was getting ready to do something the moment I closed my eyes. Then, within the darkness of […]
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