I’ve been creating music regularly for the last couple of months. I’ve been experiencing a period of stability in life that I haven’t experienced before. I don’t have the sensation that my energy is being drained. Sleeping better and feeling happy. Loved and admired from who I am, not for what I’m expected to be according to anyone’s standards.
It was a scary feeling to feel this type of connection. So much positivity and beautiful energy from someone. Made me think that I didn’t deserve to be treated like that.
I’m glad I was wrong.
Needed to experience what I thought I really needed in life. While life itself and the universe gave me the opportunity to meet someone so special, so true and so beautiful.
Even if the song translates to “Loneliness” it’s not meant to reflect my current state of mind.
This song was made to say goodbye to those things. To those connections that aren’t part of me anymore. To anything and everything that made me feel alone. Even when I was next to someone.
Hola, espero estes muy bien. Llevo mucho tiempo sin publicar aqui. Sin embargo, eh estado haciendo musica y letras para esas canciones. En ese video encontraras una de ellas. Y a mi de paso. Que estes bien, un abrazo. -Ernesto, “phantasiis”
I’d like to start with some updates since my last post:
I feel back to normal from my severe insomnia that I had for months. Now I have a more structured day and normal hours. I’ve been making music regularly and I’ve reached a point where I decided to move forward to the next step with Phantasiis:
Start giving value to what I make.
That’s why I decided to make the first step and created a Beatstars account. I only have this song for now and I will upload some unreleased songs in the next few days. It’s a nerve-racking feeling because I never tried to sell my music, other than sharing my songs from Spotify or SoundCloud. I feel that I’m at level where I feel that my music sounds the way I like.
I have a creative project going on in the background for all of you, which I hope you’ll enjoy. I’ll write more about the details once I have a finished product. For now, it is a mystery (?).
On another note, I started to play my electric guitar again out of nowhere. Not necessarily creating something with the intention to record it, but just for the fun and the pure pleasure of it. I realized that my hands actually get sore now after extended play. I suppose it is time to do those stretching exercises (there’s some by John Petrucci on Youtube in case you’d like to do some, too).
Also, I’d like to share with you that this is my first week as a Graduate student. It is interesting how life as turned out. I’m working on becoming a Marriage and Family Therapist. I hope to keep you posted on my progress and stuff that I find interesting. I miss writing psychology articles, such as the one for Morita Therapy that I did a few years ago.
It feels good be writing for the blog again. I hope that you are doing well. As always, feel free to email me using the contact form with your comments or questions.