RX to Self: Please Slow Down

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

It’s been 12 years since I started this path. Mental illness wasn’t the problem. The struggle was how to regain my confidence and self-esteem after the first onset of symptoms.  In retrospect, I felt like an observer. I was aware of my surroundings and the people around me. The constant struggle to try to belong [...]

The Summer Demos

The Summer Demos

I'd like to share with you a playlist with some songs I've made during the summer. I've been practicing and learning how to produce hip-hop. My goal is to produce the LoFi genre. It has been an interesting and enjoyable process for the most part. There's much to learn, and not much time on my [...]

It’s Not Your Time

It’s Not Your Time

It’s a way that sadness manifests itself. A depressive period where you’re trying to make yourself feel anything else other than you. Coping skills are what define you during this moment. Please know that it won’t last forever. What you do during this period might do, however. This is the time where you have a [...]

Shared Dreams

Shared Dreams

Where you been? I was longing for your return Waiting for my turn To share with you my dream A dream about a place Full of music and light Where I had to inevitably embrace The beauty in your eyes When you look at me And ask me why I answer nothing I have nowhere [...]

Our Song and Silence

Our Song and Silence

I started to hear our song The one that we danced Together, as one, as a whole With our bodies and souls I realize that you're not here Not with me, not together anymore And we're not dancing either Our bodies and souls are now apart Silence is what I want Please turn off the [...]

Checking-In

Checking-In

Next week is finals week. I’ll earn a bachelor’s degree in applied psychology. Last Thursday was my last lecture as an undergrad. I felt nostalgia.  A chapter ends and another begins. Many years and sacrifices happened to get to this point. Below are some questions that I’m exploring tonight. I would love to read your [...]

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

This song was written as a reminder to myself. To be thankful for people that I welcome to my life. To be aware of who I let to hear my story. It turned out to be a lesson for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=822rU5FnNBg Thank you for listening. Please let me know your thoughts in the comments or [...]

Falling Gently

Falling Gently

This post is about self-awareness. I was on a funk for some time. Now, things are different because I think about them differently. Its perspective. As I’ve discussed on my last post update, I took a break from digital distractions. I realized in a few days how much time I had to do things that [...]

Guitar Loop [Video]

Guitar Loop [Video]

Life has been improving with more challenges and constrictions. There is beauty on limitations. Having less time for music may be a good thing. I'm on my last semester for my bachelors degree. It has been a rough one to say the least, and it has made me appreciate my leisure time. Now, when I [...]

An Update

An Update

I want to share with you this phrase from my journal; It’s scary to admit that I’m looking for excuses that would validate my lack of performance. I wrote that five days ago. I’ve been thinking how I’m spending my time. To be honest, I wasn’t satisfied how I was approaching each day lately. I [...]

Rx to Self: Part Four

Rx to Self: Part Four

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Trying to do beyond of what I’m capable of, without proper rest At the beginning, I was having between two to three hours of sleep at best. Specially the night [...]

Rx to Self: Part Three

Rx to Self: Part Three

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Misinformation and poor communication  I tend to do things on my own for most of the time. The idea of self-sufficiency is something that I look up to. When my [...]