Embracing Your Dark Side – Or Getting Inspired by It (as an Artist)

Embracing Your Dark Side – Or Getting Inspired by It (as an Artist)
“Obscurity” – an instrumental beat Produced by Phantasiis

We all have it.

Is that other self, who tells us to react in ways that might not be the best for everyone else. Ways that might have a negative consequence. Those thoughts that turn into scenes in our heads on how we would have approached it.

But we stop. We don’t act. We just imagine.

There’s lots to say about our dark side. Sometimes, we do let it out and have it its way. Is not always pleasant. Most of the time is not. However, it is important to know that our dark side has its purpose. It is there to protect us from harm. From injustice. From treats and an even the dark side of other people.

Sometimes fire needs to be fought with fire.

I’m not here to say that acting according to our dark side is the default answer. Allow me to elaborate on how I am embracing my darkness and channel that energy into my music. Is a creative way for me to see, hear, and materialize all those feelings that I have, and cannot explain with ease.

Music has been a tool for me to express and create emotional landscapes that I can’t express otherwise.

I am trying to create something beautiful out of it. Something that resonates with others. Something that inspire other human beings.

I am trying to connect with you through music.

I’ve been producing and releasing songs often as the winter and shorter days invigorate my creativity. I’ve been feeling more energy and sleeping better. Waking up and going for walks around the park before sunrise. I love this season.

I’ve been working on improving my diet and exercising regularly. Which, in turn, will help me create better music.

For the longest time I was ashamed of many thoughts and feelings I have. Sometimes to the guilt was so intense that was provoking me feelings of anxiety.

At the end of the day, they’re thoughts. They come and they go. Thanks to meditation I am getting comfortable by being present with my thoughts. Regardless of their nature. I just let them be and acknowledge them.

I’ve been creating darker music. And I have been creating relaxing and calming music, too. I feel that by exploring my thoughts and states of mind, I will be able to evoke feelings in others.

Let the music express what you feel. Even feelings are temporary. Might as well enjoy them or better yet, get inspired by them and create something that has permanence.

On Creativity,

Ernesto

“Esa Noche” – Nueva Base de Rap | Hip-hop Instrumental producido por Phantasiis

Aqui te presento mi nuevo instrumental. Espero te guste y te inspire.

Here’s my new instrumental. I hope you like it and it inspires you!

Ernesto

“Mi Otro Yo” (My Other Self) – Prod. by Phantasiis | Hip-hop Instrumental | Piano Type Beat

“Mi Otro Yo” (My Other Self) – Prod. by Phantasiis | Hip-hop Instrumental | Piano Type Beat

Today I worked on an instrumental song that I’ve produced from scratch live on Twitch and Facebook. While the stream itself wasn’t optimized-it looked low-res and blurry- I had an amazing experience doing it. I took me about two hours and a half to have the finished product that you’ll see below.

“Mi Otro Yo” or my other self in English is a song that to me, teleports the listener to a place where you meet your other self, either good or bad and have a conversation with them. It has a dark, somber atmosphere but also a feeling of hope, nonetheless.

I hope that this song makes you feel something special.

On Creativity,

Ernesto

Producing My First Vocal Recording

Producing My First Vocal Recording

I’ve been exploring my lyrics in Spanish, my first language. The reason for that is because I can rhyme and improvise better with it. My written and spoken English is more academic rather than metaphorical or artistic. I felt limited.

This process took several months of trial and error. I’m mostly self-thought on my music and production skills. At a certain point I felt certain guilt of investing so much time, money, and hours on this craft and not releasing anything to the world. While it is not a requirement, I felt compelled to share my music and change of sound since my old project Ernesto Delirium.

I remember that I wrote that Phantasiis was going to be a new project where I’ll focus on hip-hop, rap, and instrumentals. I’ve kept my word. However, this website wasn’t reflecting that.

Which brings me to this post.

Here’s my first attempt at producing a rap song made by yours truly. I’ve invested in a microphone and decided to try it, after much hesitation on my ability to create something different than a rough recording. I’ve used all the tools that I had available and mixed this song to the best of my ability.

It turned out decent.

To me this is huge as a self-thought music producer. It is a new milestone on my skillset. I’m working on some releases and writing lyrics as well. I’ll update you soon about it.

Happy New Year!

On New Beginnings,

-Ernesto

Words And Beats | Interview with Gene Katsuro

Words And Beats | Interview with Gene Katsuro

Hey friends,

Welcome to the first episode of Words and Beats with Phantasiis!

Today we are talking with Chicago based producer, Gene Katsuro from MakeYourOwnDamnMusic.

In this episode, we discuss Gene’s creative process and mindset towards music. We dive into how music shaped our lives and why we must save music and not the other way around. Also, we dive into the world of meditation and eastern philosophies on how our psychology affects our music output.

We also discuss mental health and touch base on our personal experiences and struggles.

This was a true honor for me because Gene was the one who motivated me to get serious about music and start releasing songs. I never thought that I will be interviewing him and I am thankful for this opportunity.

For more about his projects please see his links below:

Youtube: https://www.youtube.com/user/HowToMak…

Imminent Chaos | Dark Emotional Beat

Imminent Chaos | Dark Emotional Beat

Buy here: https://bsta.rs/1b7c030

I’d like to share with you my newest beat on Beatstars. This one was an interesting one for me because I didn’t expect to turn this dark. When I started making the beat, I was envisioning a feeling of closure, a feeling of redemption.

It turned out differently.

Once I started adding the melodies, I instantly felt the desperation the sound was portraying. Imaging a feeling of sadness that happens when you know something inevitable is going to happen. Hence, the title, “Imminent Chaos”. It felt right to name it that way.

As far as the structure goes, I went to a fast tempo, 150 bpm with a half time feeling. I spend more time on my hi hat patterns because I feel that’s one of the areas to improve with my music. Also, I tried different patterns with the kick drum. I liked how it turned out at the end.

One thing I still need to be okay with is the 808 bass. I’m sure I will make them sound better. On this occasion, the whole mix peaks at -6db. I hope to hear what a mixing engineer can do with the stems.

Please let me know what you think of it. Constructive feedback is always welcomed. Feel free to use the contact form to get in touch.

Let’s Inspire and Create,

-Ernesto

Pandemia Y Desamor | Instrumental Beat for Sale/Lease

Pandemia Y Desamor  | Instrumental Beat for Sale/Lease

https://www.beatstars.com/beat/pandemia-y-desamor-88bpm-5658753

I’d like to start with some updates since my last post:

I feel back to normal from my severe insomnia that I had for months. Now I have a more structured day and normal hours. I’ve been making music regularly and I’ve reached a point where I decided to move forward to the next step with Phantasiis:

Start giving value to what I make.

That’s why I decided to make the first step and created a Beatstars account. I only have this song for now and I will upload some unreleased songs in the next few days. It’s a nerve-racking feeling because I never tried to sell my music, other than sharing my songs from Spotify or SoundCloud. I feel that I’m at level where I feel that my music sounds the way I like.

I have a creative project going on in the background for all of you, which I hope you’ll enjoy. I’ll write more about the details once I have a finished product. For now, it is a mystery (?).

On another note, I started to play my electric guitar again out of nowhere. Not necessarily creating something with the intention to record it, but just for the fun and the pure pleasure of it. I realized that my hands actually get sore now after extended play. I suppose it is time to do those stretching exercises (there’s some by John Petrucci on Youtube in case you’d like to do some, too).

Also, I’d like to share with you that this is my first week as a Graduate student. It is interesting how life as turned out. I’m working on becoming a Marriage and Family Therapist. I hope to keep you posted on my progress and stuff that I find interesting. I miss writing psychology articles, such as the one for Morita Therapy that I did a few years ago.

It feels good be writing for the blog again. I hope that you are doing well. As always, feel free to email me using the contact form with your comments or questions.

Let’s Inspire and Create.

To New Adventures,

-Ernesto

‘Ya No Te Conozco’ | [Video] Demo by Phantasiis

‘Ya No Te Conozco’ | [Video] Demo by Phantasiis

Hello,

Here’s a video of a song I wrote in July. It’s in Spanish. I hope that you like it.

I was having lots of nostalgia when I was writing the lyrics, and the music felt right. There’s times where I write the music first, and the lyrics follow suit. Other times it’s the opposite.

I have a feeling that sometimes when I’m in a flow state the song writes itself. Has this happened to you?

Let me know.

Inspire and Create,

-Ernesto

‘Estoy Tranquilo’ – Instrumental by Phantasiis

‘Estoy Tranquilo’ – Instrumental by Phantasiis

Hello,

Here’s a new beat that I made recently. I hope that you like it. I spent several days without making any music. I’ve been, however, playing my guitar and doing freestyles in Spanish to get a creative flow going.

I’m finally sleeping better and feel like a human being again. I feel that my body is still recovering from extended sleep deprivation. I’m feeling great nonetheless.

I feel that I’m making progress with my music. Perhaps not in quality or uniqueness if you will, but I do feel a certain change on how I make music. I feel that I’m finally have some sort of system going on. A process where I can hear the song in my head and translate it to my DAW.

I’m slowly but surely switching from using Mac to PC. Mostly because of school and software compatibility. I’ve been okay with the transition. I’m going to miss Logic Pro for sure, it is great for mixing. I like its workflow.

For now, I’ve been producing on FL Studio 20. I’m still working on getting to know the program well and I know just enough to create songs and do mixes. It’s a great software.

For this song, I’ve used XLN Audio RC-20 plug in. It’s my first time using it and I like how it sounds so far. Perhaps it will be a constant tool on future songs.

I hope that you are well.

Inspire and create,

-Ernesto

Phantasiis – ‘Summer Beats’ | Instrumental Hip-Hop Playlist

Phantasiis – ‘Summer Beats’ | Instrumental Hip-Hop Playlist

Here’s a playlist of several singles that I released today on my SoundCloud. For some reason which I yet need to explore, I didn’t want to release it. Perhaps it was a sensation of impostor syndrome disguised as procrastination. I had several songs finished and ready to go, and I still did not do the last step -the easiest one, release them- for several weeks.

I believe I got trapped in a ‘it still needs to improve’ mindset. From now on, I’m going to release more frequently and with less hesitation about quality. I want to release well mixed music, of course. However, what might sound bad for me, my be good for others. It’s all about perspective. I need to be okay with that.

I’m still having recurring insomnia and is getting into a point of frustration. I hope, that with better sleep hygiene and cutting on caffeine I can rest better. I’m revisiting some of books which discuss sleep and how to optimize it. If I get results from what I learn, I’ll share here.

Lastly, I have a question for you:

How often does it happen to you when you have a finished product of any kind, and self-doubt kicks in and you delay its release? I’m not completely sure is self-doubt most of the time. I think there’s something deeper than that. Who knows? Hence, the question. Please let me know in the comments section what is your answer. Also, if you liked any of the songs from this playlist below.

Thank you for listening.