Phantasiis
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Category: Life
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Motivation – You got this
Seeking motivation when feeling in need of a little push. Someone who believes in me. Anybody. I wish I had people around who could tell me that I can do it. That they’re proud of me for what I’m doing. Recognition and acknowledgment. Basic things that I believe everyone needs at different degrees. I want…
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Some Changes and Updates
It’s been a while since I’ve made a blog post. I’ve been working in the background. Making songs on a regular basis and learning new software. Here’s some updates I’d like to share with you since my absence: I’ve noticed that I’m more creative when I wake up earlier than later in the day. The…
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Back at the Craft | Update
Here’s a song that I’ve made recently. It’s an instrumental where I try to emulate the Lo-Fi genre. I hope you like it! I stopped making music for several weeks due to my mental state and negative mindset. I started exercising during that time and did meditation consistently. I feel that I started to notice…
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RX to Self: Please Slow Down
It’s been 12 years since I started this path. Mental illness wasn’t the problem. The struggle was how to regain my confidence and self-esteem after the first onset of symptoms. In retrospect, I felt like an observer. I was aware of my surroundings and the people around me. The constant struggle to try to belong…
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From My Journal
The following line is from my journal: I’m scared of how much damage I can do. The reason for that is due to the damage I’ve caused to people I love. The problem is that I tend to realize it once I’ve done it. I feel that my intention is never to cause distress to…
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Our Song and Silence
I started to hear our song The one that we danced Together, as one, as a whole With our bodies and souls I realize that you’re not here Not with me, not together anymore And we’re not dancing either Our bodies and souls are now apart Silence is what I want Please turn off the…
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Checking-In
Next week is finals week. I’ll earn a bachelor’s degree in applied psychology. Last Thursday was my last lecture as an undergrad. I felt nostalgia. A chapter ends and another begins. Many years and sacrifices happened to get to this point. Below are some questions that I’m exploring tonight. I would love to read your…
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phantasiis – My New Music Project
Exploring new sounds and emotions through music is important to me. I’m revisiting lyrics and ideas in Spanish, as reflected on my last spoken word record. This turned into my new project: phantasiis. This project of mine is going to be entirely in Spanish, my first language. There’s something in me that I want to…
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Falling Gently
This post is about self-awareness. I was on a funk for some time. Now, things are different because I think about them differently. Its perspective. As I’ve discussed on my last post update, I took a break from digital distractions. I realized in a few days how much time I had to do things that…
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Rx to Self: Part Four
This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Trying to do beyond of what I’m capable of, without proper rest At the beginning, I was having between two to three hours of sleep at best. Specially the night…
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Rx to Self: Part Three
This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Misinformation and poor communication I tend to do things on my own for most of the time. The idea of self-sufficiency is something that I look up to. When my…
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Rx to Self: Part Two
This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Not having health insurance I didn’t really had an idea how to find, and be able to qualify for health insurance for my grandpa in Mexico. My intention at this…
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