Motivation – You got this

Motivation – You got this

Seeking motivation when feeling in need of a little push. Someone who believes in me. Anybody. I wish I had people around who could tell me that I can do it. That they're proud of me for what I'm doing. Recognition and acknowledgment. Basic things that I believe everyone needs at different degrees. I want [...]

‘Ya No Te Conozco’ | [Video] Demo by Phantasiis

‘Ya No Te Conozco’ | [Video] Demo by Phantasiis

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rngcXDTnYLs Hello, Here's a video of a song I wrote in July. It's in Spanish. I hope that you like it. I was having lots of nostalgia when I was writing the lyrics, and the music felt right. There's times where I write the music first, and the lyrics follow suit. Other times it's the [...]

Some Changes and Updates

Some Changes and Updates

It's been a while since I've made a blog post. I've been working in the background. Making songs on a regular basis and learning new software. Here's some updates I'd like to share with you since my absence:  I've noticed that I'm more creative when I wake up earlier than later in the day. The [...]

Back at the Craft | Update

Back at the Craft | Update

Here’s a song that I’ve made recently. It’s an instrumental where I try to emulate the Lo-Fi genre. I hope you like it! "Where I've Been" - Ernesto Delirium I stopped making music for several weeks due to my mental state and negative mindset. I started exercising during that time and did meditation consistently. I [...]

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

It’s been 12 years since I started this path. Mental illness wasn’t the problem. The struggle was how to regain my confidence and self-esteem after the first onset of symptoms.  In retrospect, I felt like an observer. I was aware of my surroundings and the people around me. The constant struggle to try to belong [...]

From My Journal

From My Journal

The following line is from my journal: I’m scared of how much damage I can do.  The reason for that is due to the damage I’ve caused to people I love. The problem is that I tend to realize it once I’ve done it. I feel that my intention is never to cause distress to [...]

Our Song and Silence

Our Song and Silence

I started to hear our song The one that we danced Together, as one, as a whole With our bodies and souls I realize that you're not here Not with me, not together anymore And we're not dancing either Our bodies and souls are now apart Silence is what I want Please turn off the [...]

Checking-In

Checking-In

Next week is finals week. I’ll earn a bachelor’s degree in applied psychology. Last Thursday was my last lecture as an undergrad. I felt nostalgia.  A chapter ends and another begins. Many years and sacrifices happened to get to this point. Below are some questions that I’m exploring tonight. I would love to read your [...]

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

This song was written as a reminder to myself. To be thankful for people that I welcome to my life. To be aware of who I let to hear my story. It turned out to be a lesson for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=822rU5FnNBg Thank you for listening. Please let me know your thoughts in the comments or [...]

phantasiis – My New Music Project

Exploring new sounds and emotions through music is important to me. I'm revisiting lyrics and ideas in Spanish, as reflected on my last spoken word record. This turned into my new project: phantasiis. This project of mine is going to be entirely in Spanish, my first language. There's something in me that I want to [...]

Falling Gently

Falling Gently

This post is about self-awareness. I was on a funk for some time. Now, things are different because I think about them differently. Its perspective. As I’ve discussed on my last post update, I took a break from digital distractions. I realized in a few days how much time I had to do things that [...]

Guitar Loop [Video]

Guitar Loop [Video]

Life has been improving with more challenges and constrictions. There is beauty on limitations. Having less time for music may be a good thing. I'm on my last semester for my bachelors degree. It has been a rough one to say the least, and it has made me appreciate my leisure time. Now, when I [...]