RX to Self: Please Slow Down

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

It’s been 12 years since I started this path. Mental illness wasn’t the problem. The struggle was how to regain my confidence and self-esteem after the first onset of symptoms.  In retrospect, I felt like an observer. I was aware of my surroundings and the people around me. The constant struggle to try to belong [...]

It’s Not Your Time

It’s Not Your Time

It’s a way that sadness manifests itself. A depressive period where you’re trying to make yourself feel anything else other than you. Coping skills are what define you during this moment. Please know that it won’t last forever. What you do during this period might do, however. This is the time where you have a [...]

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

Thank You (Letter) | New Single

This song was written as a reminder to myself. To be thankful for people that I welcome to my life. To be aware of who I let to hear my story. It turned out to be a lesson for me. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=822rU5FnNBg Thank you for listening. Please let me know your thoughts in the comments or [...]

Falling Gently

Falling Gently

This post is about self-awareness. I was on a funk for some time. Now, things are different because I think about them differently. Its perspective. As I’ve discussed on my last post update, I took a break from digital distractions. I realized in a few days how much time I had to do things that [...]

Rx to Self: Part Two

Rx to Self: Part Two

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Not having health insurance I didn’t really had an idea how to find, and be able to qualify for health insurance for my grandpa in Mexico. My intention at this [...]

Angry With A Choice

Angry With A Choice

Choosing how to react when something happens to you is a skill. I've been practicing it during the winter break. It's knowing that you are in control of your reaction, regardless of the emotion being present. This practice comes handy during times when your only option is to be strong. It's been a tough winter [...]

Checking-in

Checking-in

Its been a week of poor sleep. I feel as if my circadian rhythm got shifted. I go to bed, and wake up after three hours on average. This is not my usual self. It's been months since I had an extended period of irregular sleep. It's the stress. I've been dealing with situations since [...]

New EP Out Now

Hello, I've released a new spoken-word, 11 tracks EP in Spanish. It's titled "Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste" (Differential: He had a sad day).  https://open.spotify.com/album/5b9s5UiPUezm5ZZuyIQ5oa?si=z9yf1q9RTNCtjMfUjKCVsA Diferencial: Tuvo un Día Triste This EP is composed of poems that I wrote, based on love and heartbreak with the point of view of someone who has a mental [...]

Writing About What Hurts

Writing About What Hurts

“Write hard and clear about what hurts.” ― Ernest Hemingway  This quote has been inside my mind lately. Most of my writing is inspired by what’s hurting and confusing me. The struggles of trying to give meaning to what I can’t explain to someone in person. Explaining how I feel can be problematic. Sometimes, I [...]

During the Night

During the night I feel them Coming thirsty Eating my will and confidence A thousand hands Reaching to my mind Touching my fears Tempting with my life A voice speaking “Good night” Until I fall sleep Nightmares rising Waking alone Full of marks and scars Inside my thoughts I'm becoming An outsider of my own [...]

Guidance

"Do you believe that I will do the right thing? I don’t have to ask you though, but I need your guidance. Decisions are hard for me most of the time. Everyone says that is fine, and time is being wasted waiting for guidance. I don’t know why my friend, but you seem to be [...]