Some Changes and Updates

Some Changes and Updates

It's been a while since I've made a blog post. I've been working in the background. Making songs on a regular basis and learning new software. Here's some updates I'd like to share with you since my absence:  I've noticed that I'm more creative when I wake up earlier than later in the day. The [...]

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

RX to Self: Please Slow Down

It’s been 12 years since I started this path. Mental illness wasn’t the problem. The struggle was how to regain my confidence and self-esteem after the first onset of symptoms.  In retrospect, I felt like an observer. I was aware of my surroundings and the people around me. The constant struggle to try to belong [...]

The Summer Demos

The Summer Demos

I'd like to share with you a playlist with some songs I've made during the summer. I've been practicing and learning how to produce hip-hop. My goal is to produce the LoFi genre. It has been an interesting and enjoyable process for the most part. There's much to learn, and not much time on my [...]

Shared Dreams

Shared Dreams

Where you been? I was longing for your return Waiting for my turn To share with you my dream A dream about a place Full of music and light Where I had to inevitably embrace The beauty in your eyes When you look at me And ask me why I answer nothing I have nowhere [...]

Our Song and Silence

Our Song and Silence

I started to hear our song The one that we danced Together, as one, as a whole With our bodies and souls I realize that you're not here Not with me, not together anymore And we're not dancing either Our bodies and souls are now apart Silence is what I want Please turn off the [...]

Checking-In

Checking-In

Next week is finals week. I’ll earn a bachelor’s degree in applied psychology. Last Thursday was my last lecture as an undergrad. I felt nostalgia.  A chapter ends and another begins. Many years and sacrifices happened to get to this point. Below are some questions that I’m exploring tonight. I would love to read your [...]

phantasiis – My New Music Project

Exploring new sounds and emotions through music is important to me. I'm revisiting lyrics and ideas in Spanish, as reflected on my last spoken word record. This turned into my new project: phantasiis. This project of mine is going to be entirely in Spanish, my first language. There's something in me that I want to [...]

Falling Gently

Falling Gently

This post is about self-awareness. I was on a funk for some time. Now, things are different because I think about them differently. Its perspective. As I’ve discussed on my last post update, I took a break from digital distractions. I realized in a few days how much time I had to do things that [...]

Rx to Self: Part Four

Rx to Self: Part Four

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Trying to do beyond of what I’m capable of, without proper rest At the beginning, I was having between two to three hours of sleep at best. Specially the night [...]

Rx to Self: Part Three

Rx to Self: Part Three

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Misinformation and poor communication  I tend to do things on my own for most of the time. The idea of self-sufficiency is something that I look up to. When my [...]

Rx to Self: Part Two

Rx to Self: Part Two

This post is part of a series of experiences on healthcare. From realizations, patient navigation, and the implications of being divided by a border. Symptom: Not having health insurance I didn’t really had an idea how to find, and be able to qualify for health insurance for my grandpa in Mexico. My intention at this [...]